This is my very first blog post and to be honest I am terrified. I am not one to put myself out there, especially on the internet. Today as I stare at this blank page in front of me, I have a million filters going through my head. If I was staring at a blank page in my journal I would easily open up to the private pages in front of me while pouring my heart out. I desire that same transparency on this blog. I do not want to blog about some glamorous life that I am living that’s really just a photoshopped version of my real life because I am too afraid to share. I want to talk about all things, in hopes that a reader might come along and find solace in the fact that they are not alone in whatever struggles and hardships they are facing in their own life. The blog name however was inspired by the fact that I not only want to share the difficult moments in life with you guys, but also the joyful ones.
I hope create a space on the internet where God’s light can shine through and all of the hope that comes with his promises. I am a relatively new Christian believer, so I am most definitely in the trenches right now navigating my faith. If you are in the same boat, join along! We can do it together. I am also in the midst of recovering from an eating disorder, exercise addiction, and hypothalamic amenorrhea. Sounds like a mouthful when I write it all out, sounds like a lot of baggage that I wouldn’t necessarily want to take on if I had a choice, but here I am and that’s what I’m faced with. I am trusting in God that He has given me these conditions as a way for me to connect to others, and through His healing alone, I will get to the other side of this recovery journey, and you can too.
Lately I have felt distant from the Lord. I wake up each morning and read my Bible, but I find myself daydreaming about other things while reading. A relationship with God is a difficult one for me because it is not tangible. Or at least not tangible in the sense where I can sit down and have a face to face conversation with Him. I pray my best prayers through my writing so I am hoping to create a section on this blog of daily or even weekly prayers to hold myself accountable, and as a way for you to join in as well. I would love for you to share what God is laying on your hearts and minds. If you are not a Christian, please stick around. Everyone is welcome on this blog and I plan to share a variety of content. I am also open to all stories of faith, so please reach out to me if you would like to talk more about your own personal beliefs.
Well folks, it looks like my son James has woken up for the day so I better hop off. I wasn’t really sure where this blog post was going to go, and it was quite all over the place, but here we are in the world of blogging. I am definitely not going to promise perfection on this blog, but I hope to learn and grow along the way. Have a great day my friends!